Open Mind - Careful Heart

Please, save me - I am really trying to keep an open mind here! Of course I am sure it is not helping that I am trying to power through a lot of frogs to find my prince. I realize that I am not a princess but I can be someones queen!

It certainly amazes me how many people lie on line and I am not sure what that is about. Seems like such a waste of time but then previewing some of the profiles it is evident that no time was wasted! It is interesting (not surprising but interesting) that guys are usually so vague in their profile and yet girls are reading them and trying to read into them and then girls are usually so wordy about who they are and what they want and guys aren't getting past the picture!

I think one day I will have to talk about the different sites and what they offer but for now I am only familiar with 5, yes I signed up for another one. I am seeing which ones work best for me and I am not willing to pay for a site. So far I have aquired two army pen pals one from Canada and one from the U.S. I don't mind too much but it would be nice to connect with someone closer to home and real! After all these years surely my prince isn't off fighting a war in some foreign country! Funny thing is if I had thought of it sooner, I never would have minded an online connection with other people, just not for the purposes of a love relationship!

okay back to checking emails and googling names!

Back on Line

I decided at the beginning of this year that I would face all my fears and put myself out there to experience all that life has to offer. That is where all this nonesense started and if I hadn't experienced a wonderful on line encounter early on I would probably be done with all this nonesense.

Now there are two theories to consider here; firstly that to have one positive encounter perhaps there could be another fellow out there waiting in the wings for me to appear. Of course the other theory and the one I tend to lean more towards is I have had my one positive experience and the fact that I am comparing him to every profile I look at is counter productive to my goals.

So with gusto I have signed up for 4 on-line dating sites, okay as I have said in my profile I am a "get er done" kind of girl and I just want to get this foolishness out of my system as soon as possible. Perhaps there is no encounters on line worthy of my wit and charm but look at all the material I will have for this blog!

*it is interesting to note that when I read my own blogs I note an air of arrogance that I really don't have!

Happy Valentine's Day

Today I thought I would share a special Valentine's treat; a beautiful email I received from my recent online dating guy. (It is edited to protect the innocent and me too!)


My Love (translated)

I'm usually not the kind of person that would write a love letter, but I thought i'd do this for you because you are the most wonderful thing in my life right now. . . I can't eat, sleep, walk, drive, or even work without thinking about you. You are in my thoughts all the time. I'd tell you you're in my heart, but I don't feel like that would be right, because my heart is not mine anymore -- it belongs to you. You are sweet, loving, caring, beautiful and you make me feel like one of the luckiest guys in the world.

I need you to know I am with you through everything, . . . I've given you my heart and I hope that you won't break it. . . Remember when I promised you that I'd never let you down, that i'd never treat you bad, that I would share your joy and pain? I will promise all those things over and over again . . .

Missing you so much honey.

I think it is perfectly evident how a girl could fall for this, even an intelligent synic like myself. If this guy can deliver in person his promises on the computer he is going to make some woman very happy - no that was not a pang of jealously!

Hoping everyone is finding love out there tonight.

We are not in Kansas anymore!

Went out to do some errands today and walked past a shop with the most stunning pair of red high heels, so in honour of Valentine's Day tomorrow I decided I would go in and try them on. Those beauties fit like a glove and they begged me to take them home. What could a girl do? I now own the most amazing shoes to wear tomorrow for my Valentine's Day Dinner.

Yes I have been invited out to have dinner with my mom, her husband and my grandmother! Is that sad? The worst part is no one (single) will see or even care that I am wearing hot, new pumps. I swear next year I too will have a Valentine! I have decided to jump back on the horse and try the on line dating again, and next year I will buy the dress to match the shoes.

After writing I decided to go out on the town and show off those new shoes, I must say my experience with clubbing, dancing and "boy/girl interaction" is very different to what is going on out there now! It was by no means unpleasant, just different and on the scale of interesting was certainly a 9. As for the shoes, good thing they are cute cause they were killing my feet! Just like some guys I have met in my lifetime.

Back so Soon!

Whew, what a ride! I just had the most exciting, intense online relationship, it was so amazing while it lasted ! Do you remember that new love feeling, you have butterflies in your tummy, you can hardly breath, you stop thinking straight. I felt like I could take on the world and no one could crush me. It has been a very long time since I have had that feeling, in fact some of it I am sure I have never felt (after all there is a mature side to me now!) I now know that it is a feeling I miss and I won't wait so long to have it again.

Having never actually spent anytime on line with someone before and then having a 10 day run was euphoric! I met the most wonderful, dreamy, romantic, intelligent, humourous and honest fellow I have ever had the pleasure to meet. Okay I didn't really meet him, we had a long distance only, romance and so of course I don't really know if he was all of that and a "bag of chips". Why would he lie? I didn't lie - as I discovered online romance is actually a great place to pour out your heart, soul and deepest thoughts and feel no shame, remorse or embarrassment. SAY WHAT! BACK UP! What the hell was I thinking - well I was thinking of love, romance, commitment, friendship, adventure and a variety of other unreal internet possibilties.

Lesson learned, do not go overboard crazy with your feelings, keep the interactions light and brief. Do not allow yourself to create an attachment to what you perceive the other individual to be like. It is clear to me that I am lacking experience in the online world and that my relationship skills are far too rusty to take on battle in cyber space. I will cautiously hone my skills and look forward to a better outcome the next time.

Taking a hiatus!

It is hard to believe that it has been only a week since I have been away from this site! I have been quite distracted, in spite of my demanding online criteria it appears I may have met a wonderful guy that did everything right! and without reading my blog!!

This is not to say that I am necessarily finished with this site, I enjoy the topic and wouldn't mind popping in occasionally to add some witty insight of my own. I am fascinated by how many people are looking for a mate and yet put so little effort into something so important! I am guilty. I also believe that if you are not sure what it is your looking for in a partner that it is difficult to ask for who you want. I am guilty.

Best Wishes

On line dating / thrift stores

As I have mentioned in previous posts I have signed on to other dating sites in the past and not found them helpful, useful or even interesting and for what ever reason today it struck me! I react to on-line dating the same as when I am shopping in a thrift store. I'll check out a few pieces but I rarely try anything on and I always leave empty handed - I don't like sifting through all the clothes that are the wrong size, wrong cut and too worn. I am easily discouraged and unable to see the diamond in the rough.